I survived 8 dreadful months

November 13th, 2008 was the day my sister turned off my internet on my phone

As you all know the Sidekick needs the internet in order to live!

I wasn't even able to listen to ringtones -_-, that's how mandatory the internet is.

So today I got my texting/internet back on . YAAAY!

So aim up and send me continuous texts. I will appreciate them more than before haha

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I didn't know I had so much shit in my notes. Such as: poems, quick thoughts (my mind never stops), inspirational quotes, and just bullshit. haha

But it was amusing and impressive to reread how my mind thought in the past.

Just for your curiosity, I'll provide you some samples. :)

POEMS:

Breathe

I already learned how to breathe

Listen to my heart as I inhale

No more worries no more regrets

Everything is gunna be alright

I experienced it all in my past

Wondering if I'll ever last

But I'm still standing strong

I can face it all

What is love? where is love? How is love suppose to be?

I don't know the answers to any of these questions because I never heard the word or felt that way

Is love when someone hurts you over and over again? Or is it supposed to make you feel accepted? Or wanted?

Unresolved thoughts of what my life should be

Everything around me seems like a faded memory

Views about life are full of void and selfishness

No one turns to empathize or have compassion for one another.

Where are you when I need you? Do you hear my cries at night? Or do you just ignore me?

Why can't everything be fair and settle like a warm spring.

Take my hand and promise me everything will be alright.

Take my hand and never say goodnight.

Possibly maybe

Discreetly there is no such thing of "originality"

Who we are or who we become are influences and aspirations from the people we associate with,

the music we listen to, the movies we cry to, etc. etc.

We all evolve from something...

Well at least in my opinion

What does K.O.M.P.A.N.I. stand for?

Out of boredom and curiousity, I tried to add some words or adjectives that reflect my personality to a letter in my name.

I haven't quite completed it because my thoughts ran dry... so any suggestions?

Since others' opinions are sometimes considered instead of mine.

K

Oblivious to love

Modest to life

P

Adorable in appearance

Neutral with decisions

I

Ewww

It's awkward giving guys hugs...

I always feel this hard object against my knee -_-

I just smile and slide away discreetly.

Misfortune and Heartbreaks

My biggest failures are relationships.

I've only had ONE boyfriend, which was my first bf in the 11th grade. -_-

I didn't consider it a relationship since it only lasted for a month.

All the guys I dated were cocky jerks, who were selfish and apathetic.

I always seem to look like the "big sore loser" that is always defeated by the the opponent in the love game.

When I offer a warm embrace I receive an unexpected shove.

I never seem to make it through the that last loop when I dived through all the hoops set afire.

I always faithfully tell myself, "Maybe I'm not ready for a real relationship yet" or "There's someone out there I haven't discovered yet."

I ceased searching for love and allowed it to discover me, unfortunately I haven't been found.

I don't comprehend why my "love" life is so blurred. I need clearance.

"Love doesn't conquer all"

Nausea

Stomach viruses are icky.

I hate throwing up.

I hate bad stomach pains.

Thank goodness its only a 24-hour stomach virus.