Flutter

Two white butterflies flew by me twice the past couple of days

White means pureness, innocence, fortune

Hopefully it means well for me

Detached

I feel disconnected when we speak

His electric outlet goes short while my plug is hungering for his love

No matter how much I question him about his love for me

I will never truly know how he feels

I no longer accept his promises because of the lies he's created in the past

I don't comprehend why I love him unconditionally

He continuously throws rocks at my previously broken window

But never attempts to climb through

I have a new found lover that shelters me with everything I need

But "he's" what I want

'Love'ly faces

Riding the bus today, I witnessed a couple sound asleep on each other's shoulders

I gazed for a good 5 minutes

Contemplating how tranquil they appeared

She laid on his shoulder with her leg wrapped over his

He held her closely with his cheek upon her scalp

He inhaled then exhaled softly blowing her strands of hair

For some reason true love bloomed from their faces

I hope to find a significant other to share that love with

9.9.10.11.09

Can we talk about school? How about no

Just kidding , I have an abundance of topics I can share

My classes are pretty chill and hasty, considering the fact that I only have 5 periods! I'm awesome

My ex is also in majority of my classes, hrmph (embarrassed face)

My classes: AP Literature, Hnrs Economics, AP Statistics, Digital imaging, and AP Psychology

The only class I didn't receive was cooking. Thumbs down for my counselor

I appreciate but resent my teachers at the same time for overloading me with homework in the beginning days of school. ugh

It's overstimulating doing homework from the moment I walk into my room until the sun sets

But hey, it's a preparation for college

In my AP Literature class, my teacher interviewed the class collectively with questions based on love, fate, religion, and family

The love questions were the most excruciating- I was sitting directly in front of my ex. fml

Metaphorically speaking, most of my answers weren't referred to him, I think =/

He's my lover

But you're my soulmate...

Class of 2010

It's surreal knowing that school is 18+ hours away...(yess I counted haha)

Summer is to an end.

I'm only stoked about my classes(Psychology and hopefully cooking in particular),

and upcoming senior activities :)

Then I am officially OUT of high school moving onto my adult life =p

...............

I went on a date with a friend from school

A little weird

We ran into a handful of friends from school

They all stared at us with stunned faces haha

I never knew how close-minded society was about interracial couples =/

Black guys flipped out when they witnessed me with him

The Smiths

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go


Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go


There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...


Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...

Repetitive life

I don't think I'm going to prom.

No date.

I don't think I'm going to have a social life

No friends

I don't think I'm going to have a love life

No love

I don't think I'm going to have a life

No desire to live

This isn't going to be a great year again- I feel it.

Hurry up 2o12, Hurry the fuck up.