No more ribbons in the sky

I found this journal entry( yes I keep journals; I'm always thinking so I have to write everything that comes to mind) I forgot to type on here from weeks and weeks ago...

I'm very content.

I noticed this later this weekend while I was in vegas.

I am more humble and modest about life.

I no longer linger on certain blissful occurrences and I am no longer overwhelmed with life.

I'm widely mellow.

I enjoy this feeling considering the fact that it provides tranquility with my spirit.

written on 24.7.09

It is now 29.8.09

I am not feeling that way at all.

I feel numb

blank

confused

and lifeless

not great feelings at all haha

I feel this way because the sky no longer speaks to me

In my younger years I would look up to the sky and feel a sense of hope, faith, and warmth

Viewing it today brought me the contrary: sadness, despair, and gloom

I sighed pondering about what's left of us today.... sadly nothing